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   misanthropic67

   102 Kudos

   11/19/09

   thank you all for your advice. I have taken it all very seriously. I feel I need to clarify that I love Mark but I am not in love with him. I see myself in him. I am not ordinarily drawn towards addicts either, in fact I fear most anyone resembling my father. The dominant reason I care for Mark is because I have my own macabre and sad emotional problems from beatings and what not at the hands of my dad. Mark showed more benevolence to me than those who should instinctively care for me and helped me get over some of my issues. Therefore I am obligated to help him with his. Mark is not one of those goth kids who hates life, in my opinion I think it is the drugs that make him feel this way. He is 17 as well and I feel that because he is so young he can shed this demon. I am very sorry to hear about your daughter goodmom. Also, my username relates more to my fear of people rather than my dislike of them. Mark wants to quit he has this notion that he can not play guitar without the meth. To stranger, I understand your point of view and I realize that I am only 17 and I have not yet lived enough life to know exactly what to do in every situation, contrary to the average teenage mentality of "I know all You all know nothing compared to me" you know, things of that nature. Maybe I just feel like if I could save Mark it would compensate for my failure to reach my father, but then again I do not fully understand my own train of thought and emotions yet. I really want to reiterate that I appreciate all the advice and that I will never use drugs because I know how they destroy minds and bodies. I love my mind and in my opinion social acceptance or temporary escape is not worth losing those I love.

   11/20/09

   Reply from goodmom:

   Hey Mis,
   
   I just worry, in your attempts to help him, you will be dragged down with him. I feel your strength and love the fact that you have a strong sense of loyalty, and are thinking outside yourself, wanting to help your friend. So many people your age would just walk away and think only of themselves. What I have learned is, this drug will wipe everything out in it's wake. Leave no survivors. We can only help ourselves cope.
   
   You are such a unique spirit and have matured way beyond your years, I'm sure due to the challenges you have endured with your own father. I love that you recognize this and see something beyond the meth. He will attribute his extreme passion and creativity playing his guitar on meth, as long as he keeps achieving the extreme high. I'm sure you are all too aware that it doesn't last. It crashes down fast and hard!
   
   I certainly don't have all the answers. I've learned, he will seek help when he is ready and the road to that recovery is heartbreaking. We love them but can't make them help themselves. Depending on the type of people they are, I would still say, tell his parents. I've often said, if my daughter started this when she was a minor, I would have had a much better chance of doing something about it.
   
   Take care of you. You have so much to offer this world and I have a feeling you will do great things in your life. Remember, stay true to yourself. A BIG HUG FROM A MOM!
   

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   theknob

   1981 Kudos

   11/06/09

   hello dropping off a kudo for you & yours,,
   I have been reading ur posts love what you have to say!!!!
   
   I am in recovery now good luck w/ ur daughter:-)

   
   

   11/06/09

   Reply from goodmom:

   Thank you so much for your comments. I am really trying to understand, so I can help my daughter and myself, the right way. Read my latest posting. Any ideas? thoughts? I need some feedback please. Take care and stay on the road to happiness.
   

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